By Jeremy Smith
That first night set the standard for
the rest of the weekend: intense and moving spiritual experiences mixed with
and followed by joyful community with one another. After the first session we
played board games and enjoyed each other's presence, ending up just sitting
and talking and laughing and goofing.
The next day was more of the same. In the morning we poured out our hearts with one another, completely throwing our schedule out the window. We went right into lunch time, completely throwing our schedule out the window. We prayed, we read, we walked and talked and gamed and chatted and rested the afternoon away. It turned out that all of this was preparing us for what God would do in us during Saturday evening's session.
It began with one of our number sharing his testimony about where he was with God. You could tell he was nervous: his voice quivering here and there, his movements uncomfortable. He stood to speak. What he shared was his soul. With the most heart wrenching honesty, he shared his doubts, his faith, his failures, his anger at God, and his love for Him. "Why does God hate me? Why does he have it out for me? I can barely make it through the day…I really do love God, but it’s just hard sometimes." His words were like a lightning bolt of reality, a cascading of the depth of someone's heart into our presence as a community. It was... holy. It was like standing on the holy ground before the burning bush of someone's soul.
His obedience released the rest of us into the vulnerability that we needed. One by one we all ended up sharing. Some shared what God said to them that afternoon. Some shared the burdens of their hearts. Some shared how God had reconciled them with others at the retreat. Emotion after emotion was poured out, shared, confirmed, and received. It was everything community can be and should be amongst Christians. And it was not we who made it happen, but God. It was so obviously the work of the Spirit. This in-breaking of the Spirit is something new among us, a working of new creation in us as a seminary community. We are all looking forward to what will happen next, our hearts full of gratitude at God's working.
About the author: Jeremy Smith hails from South Daytona, FL, and is pursuing his Master of Divinity degree in Contemporary Christian Theology at Lincoln Christian Seminary. The Seminary at Lincoln Christian University is a graduate theological school focused on professional leadership ministry within its understanding of the "priesthood of all believers." In keeping with the broader University mission the Seminary is committed to developing servant leaders who will carry out Christ's Great Commission in the world.